Wednesday, March 13, 2002
Home Sick
I have been feeling home sick a lot lately. And last night one of those incidents that are *the drop that spill the water* happened. My husband went out for drinks with his co-workers after work. They invited me, but generally these happy hours involve going to a bar with a bunch of guys that drink a lot, and I barely know them so they hardy talk to me. And 99% of the times I am the only woman; so I passed. Instead I went shopping for socks and underwear for my husband; you know, men never have the time or desire to do this, so somebody has to do it for them; and then I went home and watch some TV.
He got home around 10:30 PM almost drunk, horny and talking about how much fun he has had with is co-workers, mostly because 2 female co-workers were present and they talked all night about sex, being one of the females a lesbian and all. I can't really said what it was, but I got severely irritated almost immediately. And the whole thing just reminded me how lonely I feel in those moments. I have nobody to call and vent. I have no friends in this city. I realized how *dependent* emotionally I have become of my husband, since he is the only person here for me. If I’m angry at him, on top of that I feel extremely lonely.
I have been feeling home sick a lot lately. And last night one of those incidents that are *the drop that spill the water* happened. My husband went out for drinks with his co-workers after work. They invited me, but generally these happy hours involve going to a bar with a bunch of guys that drink a lot, and I barely know them so they hardy talk to me. And 99% of the times I am the only woman; so I passed. Instead I went shopping for socks and underwear for my husband; you know, men never have the time or desire to do this, so somebody has to do it for them; and then I went home and watch some TV.
He got home around 10:30 PM almost drunk, horny and talking about how much fun he has had with is co-workers, mostly because 2 female co-workers were present and they talked all night about sex, being one of the females a lesbian and all. I can't really said what it was, but I got severely irritated almost immediately. And the whole thing just reminded me how lonely I feel in those moments. I have nobody to call and vent. I have no friends in this city. I realized how *dependent* emotionally I have become of my husband, since he is the only person here for me. If I’m angry at him, on top of that I feel extremely lonely.
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